the pig's space :)

It is one of those moments again
when you realised that nothing is ever permanent
friends have their own lives
snail mails dun keep coming in
the comes, and the goes.
i haven't been writing for a long time
i wanted to go back to writing stuff in chinese
and then i got too lazy beause i dun remember how to write in chinese
and then i stopped writing totally
some days, i just want something to hold on to
that grip, that keeps you afloat
that feeling when you swim
that silence in the water
that dive, that you hold your breath for
that limit that you are pushing yourself towards
till you are out of breath
you push yourself out of the water
and dive in again
and it is all silent again
you can only hear yourself, you are so fully focused
that you don't have to think about anyone else
and you are afloat. because for that one moment when you are swimming
your head is cleared. freed.

why do i not go back straight after
perhaps it is the desire to take this time
the freedom of not having a job
not yet a graduate
and taking that time off to find myself
to write
to start drawing
to watch the waves

goodnight my dear journal
thank you for listening.

又下雨了。

雷電是一場寂靜的交響樂。

一杯咖啡平淡無奇
但原來泡咖啡的人
能讓咖啡變得獨特

那份用心我看見了
無論多少人排隊等待
都把每一杯泡到最好

久久的等待
就一直看著
熱水把每一個杯子燙過
讓咖啡的香味布滿空氣
加糖，加奶
不斷的攪拌
雙手遞過
溫和的一聲謝謝

“老板娘，請給我多一杯用心！”


品嘗。

8 點。

在牛車水的熟食中心裡
有個老父婦人和老翁面對面坐著
嘴裡吃著港式點心，喝著熱咖啡
滿頭白髮倉倉

坐在遠處的我一口一口地吃著早點
感嘆人生
有老伴真好


早晨８點的早點。

好香！

是外加了感動。

Dear abandoned you,

hello (:

Love,
me

lately i have been secretly annoyed with certain people
and i guess i've got a whole new definition of friendship.
like seriously.

最近都有點灰灰的
想得太多太多
愛情的順利讓人不滿足
開始想人生，想自己所做的事
它的對與錯，該與不該
原來做人的道理很多
原諒和接受是成長的一部份
是自己太執著和偏極
還是身邊的人不在乎
或許我的人生應該多點付出
少些現實代來的悲關
少一點強旱


有多少人知道強旱只是自我保護

there's so much stuff running in my mind.
perhaps it's not what i thought i wanted.